John goes quiet for a second--he's not upset by the small amount of venom he hears there. It's actually kind of refreshing, and it's completely understandable given what he's gone through. It reminds John a little of when his father came after him, and the bitterness he felt in the aftermath...bitterness that still clings, some days.

"They say 'God helps those who help themselves'...well, that's not faith. It's true." John finally replies. "And if you don't have that kind of faith, but you're still doing stuff like this? The lanterns on the water? Maybe your day's come. I have faith, but I'm not talkin' about faith. I'm speaking from experience, man: the only reason I'm here is cause I fucked up. I've been back, man. And they were as good as their word, I lived. Just went and got myself killed again is all."